lately, i’ve been feeling a little off
well, it’s actually more like not feeling anything at all

is it so wrong to believe in people?

the thing didn’t bother me when it first came, but for the past few days it’s really been getting onto me
i think love is overrated
but i believe that friendship is sacred
for people i believe in to shatter the trust i gave them really pisses me off
if he was just any random acquaintance, sure fine, it woudn’t even be coined backstabbing
but for HIM to do that……..
it really sucks
honestly, i didn’t see that coming until it was nearly in front of me
stupid
i just don’t get why he did that
and when i told him that Ayel stayed over at my place, he said casually
Alam ko kung ano’ng sinabi niya sa ‘yo and for that I’m sorry
i didn’t even feel the sincerity of that statement
but in all honesty, i wasn’t hurt either
i don’t know why
i mean, that should’ve stung, right?
to know that someone you trusted admit that he betrayed you in some way
even with the i’m sorry at the end of the statement, it should have stung even just a little, but it really just didn’t.
i am somewhat nervous and scared about this.
i don’t get it
i don’t like it
i’m used to being somewhat empathic, somewhat being the key word there
so i really don’t like not being able to feel much of anything, especially in this issue
i think that it’s alright that i’m not feeling the pain of it, but i’m scared about nt feeling everything else
i mean, lately, i haven’t been feeling very happy or very angry or very sad either
i feel like drifting somewhere and just drifting with no sense of direction whatsoever